Apparently, God was busy working on me while I slept last night, because I woke up this morning with the firm conviction that God is ready for me to make some major changes in my life. And I understood that that is only going to happen through prayer.
Man, this prayer thing just keeps getting bigger and bigger.
As I’ve said in previous posts, I have been aware for a while now that God has been prepping me for changes in my life. I could feel it. I sensed it. I got hints and nudgings from random places: friends, family, my horoscope, emails, church, and that random call from God in a bar. All of these with the same message that it was time for me to change, to explore a new path, to do things differently. And all of these were about focusing more on God, my faith, and my prayer life.
This excites me. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me. Already, with this new prayer bead adventure and this new blog, I am feeling fulfilled and am having a great time. It’s exciting to thing there is even more.
Yet I am also terrified because I recognize that change is difficult, even when we know that the reward will be great, and because I am also convicted with the knowledge that God is calling me to make sacrifices, to dig deep, to let go of the things that are familiar, comfortable, and easy for me.
But I don’t want to miss this opportunity, so I sat with God in prayer this morning and prayed simply, “Lord, help me.”