As I explained earlier, I’ve been listening for my 2016 Star word – the Epiphany word that would guide me through the year, providing focus and a way of deepening my faith. I’ve journaled, prayed, listened, talked with friends, and considered different words. But the one word that revealed itself and – like an epiphany – surprised and resonated with me more with each day, prayer, and conversation, is trust. It chose me, and boy is it perfect.
For much of my life, I’ve struggled with trust. That has a lot to do with surviving trauma at an early age. And, of course, there were general, more mundane, life things that happened that made me wary. For the most part, I was aware that I wasn’t very trusting, but it’s only been in recent years that I’ve understood how deep and wide my mistrust reached. Turns out, I was most mistrustful of God . . . and myself. And that can’t be good. But I’m learning. Indeed, many things have helped me begin to trust, including The Academy for Spiritual Formation and the healing I experienced there. I’m glad to say my trust level is WAY up.
But, like all of us, I’m a work in progress, and I still have a lot to learn about trust. This year, in particular, is going to test my trust levels; I’ve committed to going full-time with Prayerworks Studio and this ministry! I have no doubt this is what God is calling me to, yet it still requires a great leap of faith, especially when it comes to finances. I will have many opportunities to practice trust – in God, myself, and others.
One of the ways I’ve begun my journey with this word is to begin each day by asking, “God, how can I learn to trust you today? What new way are you calling me to trust?” This has been a wonderful way to set up my day, encouraging me to look for signs of God’s faithfulness. Turns out, they are everywhere.
What is your Star word for 2016? I’d love to hear about it and cheer you on!